I have come to a conclusion. I’m going to take a break from art.
A few weeks ago I was invited into a creative circle. Together we would read Julia Cameron’s book “The Vein of Gold” and work with all of the assignments, to find our true creative selves and discover what has been forgotten. We meet once a week on Zoom and discuss our progress.
It has been a taxing experiment, partly because I have had a stressful time at work. But mostly because writing about myself and my life, even if it’s just for my eyes, have opened boxes in my mind I never knew existed. It has put me in a position of self-examination, which in its turn have resulted in a state of artistic midlife crisis.
This sounds like a dramatic and horrible thing, but I assure you, it is not. This is the opportunity of a lifetime, where I have the possibility to actually make a change and start over.
I simply do not like where I am with my art, I have a hundred different styles and nothing really sit well with me. On occasion I like it, but mostly I don’t. I have also skipped many vital steps in my self-teaching path, which holds me back. I have been struggling with creating art the entire year, and it’s time for a change.
That’s why I’ve made this decision. Taking a break from creating for a few weeks, and just focusing on self-discovery through Morning Pages, Daily Walks, Artist Dates and the rest of the tasks from “The Vein of Gold”. On the side of those assignments I will revisit my old art history books, and study art in every way I can think of – books about painting, tutorials, online exhibitions and so on.
After that I’ll start with painting studies, but I will still take a break from posting on social media.
Except from my personal Instagram. I’ll still post cat and nature pictures, of course.
This break from social media might go on for a few months. At least during summer. I don’t want to set a specific date. When the time is right, I’ll come back. For now it just feels like a relief, to not have the pressure of posting “good enough” art.
And I’m looking forward to the next chapter in my creative life.
I wish you all a nice summer! 🌻